I think that it's interesting how people tend to care a little bit too much about what others think of them..
I say that now because I've come to accept me for me and I don't really care to dip into other peoples' opinions of who I am and what I do... but please don't think for one second that I have never cared because that is definitely NOT the case...lol... now that I'm thinking about it, it was not too long ago when I was stuck in my "people pleasing" ways... I was so concerned with what other people thought of me that I was slowly beginning to lose myself, drowning in what I thought I was supposed to be, not understanding that attempting to make everyone else happy was leaving me empty and it was turning me into someone I didn't want to be.. I found myself searching for things to make me happy and I was beginning to get frustrated about not being able to find whatever this "IT" was that I was blindly searching for.... not knowing what I needed to make me happy was not even two feet away from me most of the time.. I was just so caught up in everyone else's wants/needs/desires that I couldn't even begin to touch my own....
I'm not really sure what prompted me to change exactly but I do attribute the finding of myself to my boyfriend b/c he is the one who sat me down and told me not to worry about what everybody else wanted from me... and in hindsight he is right(once again) lol and I'm not even upset that he was right about something else b/c in reality I was praying that he was right, I honestly think that I NEEDED him to be right because if he wasen't I had no "Plan B"....
The morning after our "talk" I felt better and I felt like a giant weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I could begin to truly find myself.... and to this very day I'm happy that our talk took place when it did.... it was no coincidence.
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